Kick me if I'm daydreaming

So... I've noticed that I have a tendency to want to escape my life lately. Like a lot of people, I'm an escapist, this is not unique. This tendency in all people is what makes novels and television and movies so popular. We're always looking for an escape. I know I do it. I've also been really aware of the people arouond me and their different methods of escape. I've watched movies with friends and watched their faces as they surrender to the people and places portrayed. I myself have spoken about the characters in tv shows as if they're personal acquaintances. Life really isn't so terrible that I need to live it vicariously through someone else. Now, I'm not bagging on relaxing in front of the tv or at a movie, or even by reading a book. I don't think that escaping from our lives is a bad thing. In fact, I think that frequently it is a necessary thing. I just have to make sure that I don't spend too much of my precious God-given time escaping from my life. I would rather live it. Granted, I am tired. I've had to accept that I have limitations. Trust me, this hasn't been easy, I'm still taking it a day at a time. I've had to make a decision that will force me to be more dependent on other people and to actually ask for help. This kills me, but I'm learning. I'm seeking to find a balance in my life right now. Which is another part of the journey, re-centering, refocusing, rolling with the punches, and finding a new balance. I've always looked forward to change in my life and I'm somewhat disappointed that this change is overshadowed by chronic illness. I'm trying hard to focus on the adventure and the positive changes that lay in store. I want to make the very most of my life. To set new goals, to find a proper perspective and to recognize what I am capable of even within the parameters set by my illness. So please, kick me if I'm daydreaming, it is not how I want to spend my precious time.

Peace out suckers...

As a lot of you know, I'm moving home. Soon, really soon. On Tuesday the 22 to be exact. In fact, I just kept moving it up until I found myself packing and quitting my job. Yes, I'm sad. Yes, I'll miss my very dear friends and maybe even the crazy cultural inbreeding of Provo just a little bit. But I'm also very excited to be moving on with my life. I need to take this time to focus on me and I really need my family. As loving and supportive as ya'll have been, my family understands my illness really well and I need that right now. I promise to keep blogging and to keep in touch. After all, I did resolve to keep in touch with my friends this year. I also made that resolution knowing that I would be leaving sooner than later. Keep blogging and keep in touch.

Quiz crazy

Nemesis

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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This made me laugh and I thought the picture rocked. I think I'm over the quiz thing now though.

They must've been some holy chips or something...

Pedro Sanchez

Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
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star struck

Since in my last blog ya'll sucked, I want to use this post to let you know how absolutely fabulous my friends are.

Kat is the style icon, the absolute Audrey Hepburn of my life. She is definitely the "IT" girl of 2005 (and 03 and 04). She is also one of the kindest and most considerate people I have ever known.
Ritz is the Lucy to my Ethel. My partner in crime. Who else could I make up words with and laugh my head off with every single day? And she is so giving!!
Em, oh Em. She is her own movie star. I adore her and she makes me happy. She's the kind of girl you want to be around all the time and her comedic timing is amazing, kind of like Helen Hunt. She can also be my constant reality check and has the gift of Simon Cowell, to tell it like it is. (But she is far more attractive.)
Jon is the Jimmy Stewart of my life. So much charm and propriety. He is also the eternally unrequited love of my life.
Liz is my Katharine Hepburn. Fashionable, beautiful, strong, and hilarious. Sometimes I wish I could just follow her for a week. I live in awe of her.
Chris is my Dick Van Dyke, need I say more? I will! Funny, charming, attractive. He needs his own show.
Nama proves to the Kimmy Gibblers of the world that there is light at the end of the tunnel and that you can grow up to be a remarkable and extremely loveable person.

Ya'll know my attention span is short, so I worked on this as long as I could. Even if you aren't listed here, I still love you and I'm grateful for the role you play in my life!