20 May 2005
Life is funny that way.
I was so stressed and unhappy at the beginning of this week, I was completely ready for a bum birthday. I was randomly bursting into tears several times a day all week. Remarkably, it was a really good day. My fam and I hung out and ate dinner and then just chilled and watched the american idol world's worst auditions and laughed like crazy. By the time the day was through, I'd developed this sense that I've finally grown into myself. It was cool. My life lay out in front of me, completely in perspective. Everything was ok. Everything was attainable. I was so aware of the essence of myself. When I was getting ready for bed, I looked in the mirror and saw a beautiful person glowing back at me. It's been a really long time since I've seen that. I don't think I've ever really seen it. I've never fully believed it anyway. I've made it. A quarter of a century is a good thing to be. I hope I feel this way x 2 million when I turn 50.