08 October 2007
My mom called me at 5:30am this morning to tell me that my Grandmama had passed away. I felt as if the wind had been knocked out of me. I sat on my bed and wept. Yes she was sick and hurting, yes she is out of pain, yes I KNOW I will see her again, but my heart is broken. She was one of the most influential people in my life. I love her so so very much. I called and told my boss and she was incredible and understanding and told me to be with my family. I spoke to my sister Big Mama and she said she and Big Daddy were going shopping to get funeral clothes for the boys. I agreed to meet her at the store and when I got there, the group had expanded to include Mojo and Dewey. We all wandered around trying to keep the boys from destroying the store and picking out clothes for each other and piling in the dressing rooms together. When I found myself alone in the store, I felt as if I couldn't breathe. I need close proximity to my family. By the end of this week, everyone will be in town mourning together and I am happy that we will all be together and grateful for my amazing and loving family.